I read a lot of blogs every time I go online and I often find myself looking through several pages of posts. I admire those who can easily articulate whatever's on their mind, and I find myself asking what the hell am I doing with my blog.

With transferring to Blogger from Wordpress, I promised myself that I would do more personal posts. Reading the blog, I find that everything here just seems superficial. It's either I have nothing better to say/nothing on my mind or I just find it hard to put 'em thoughts into words, which is often the case. I long for the days when blogging (for me) is spontaneous, high school days when everything and anything that pops on your mind gets instantly published. I wish I could be like that again, only better at writing.

This blog needs a change.

More words

So I joined OneWord two days ago. This is how it works:

simple. you’ll see one word at the top of the following screen.
you have sixty seconds to write about it.
click ‘go’ and the page will load with the cursor in place.
don’t think. just write.

Should this be a daily thing? I'm naturally a nervous wreck and the time limit doesn't help haha. In fact, I was too nervous to submit an entry yesterday (the word was slouch). I tend to think too much before I type, and I don't want to be cheating -- don't think. just write. -- so I passed. Maybe on days that I don't like the words, I could come up with my own prompt so I can still produce something. Yeah, I think that'll work.

I tried (struggled) to write more during the first few weeks of this blog and I came up with some, luckily. Hopefully, oneword will help me make this a regular thing.

The word for today's stable. And no, I won't post my entry here. I'm too shy. However, you can head over here if you are so inclined to see it. So maybe I'm not too shy after all. Heh.

On a totally unrelated note, I have a few post drafts that I'm too lazy to edit/write up. But mostly it's because sometimes, I think too much if something's worth posting. I really shouldn't care (no one's reading this anyway). This is my blog, and I should be spontaneous, or at least I want to be. And besides, this isn't a niche blog so everything goes. Sometimes, I just want to stop my brain from over-processing. I am such an over-thinker.

(un)happy endings

It's weird how sometimes, things just pop in your head. But these moments often lead to good, usually creative, ideas, right? Well, I had an idea.

The image of The Little Match Girl suddenly flashed through my mind. You know that sudden thoughts that sometimes make no sense or just come out of nowhere? I immediately confirmed with my sister the manner of death of the girl, and it's one sad way to go. Isn't the story a fairytale? If it was, then it should have had a happy ending, right? Maybe it wasn't. That was probably the saddest story I have ever read during my younger years.

The idea I had was continuing the story, or somehow altering something about the story. I don't know why but, however sad it was (it's friggin' heartbreaking, dammit), it is actually good...I think. I know I used to have the book, but I rarely still have the things I owned from childhood. So, I would definitely hunt for a copy; if I would work on the idea, I first have to reacquaint myself with the whole story. I don't remember much, other than she sells on the street and strikes a match to warm herself. Then she eventually dies. Hah.

The only problem though, is I have no idea what I would do with the story. I'm not sure if I want it to have a happy ending, maybe change her death to be less sad and alone? Or her story could be my inspiration in making my own Match Girl. I don't know. We'll see.

I talk as if I'm any good at making (mending?) stories, but I'm not. It's just an idea, and I do hope I can think of something and get to it! That would be nice :)